new life^^

i m back!!haha~ long time didn't update my blog..because of busying prepares all the things that needed to adapt to my new life..Tarc penang~!!i m coming soon!!haha..even though i have a cheerful appearance-->> feel that very excited to live in new life,new condition,new house,new friend,new teacher,....but inside of my mind.,my brain,my heart.....i cant bear this kind of new life..i cant bear it..really!! NEW LIFE means everything will start from zero..the past matter,every proud cases are going to vanish..everyone is trying hard again to let them to be confirmed..new life!!!AGAIN~~tiresome feeling..u come again!!!haiz..hopes that this new life can let me feel comfortable..and also let me bear it easily!!!hey..my new life!!!my sweety and lovely life..u can become what i imagine..what i expect..right?!u must do like that! MUST~~let me adapt myself,let me lives in new life without changes anymore..my heart,my mind,...will be loyal to one person,one family,....all my friend!!!no changes~~everything will become originality....if my mentality can be holded ..i promise..i can be the best!! oh yeah!!my new life~~ i m coming now^^haha..

成长~

我们只是小孩..
单纯..天真..无邪..的小孩..
一直蹦蹦跳跳..的小孩..
无忧无虑..的小孩..
在妈妈怀抱中..的小孩..
不知..从几何时..
我们被逼着走上人生的康庄大道..
被逼着学会看别人脸色做人..
被逼着融入大人尔虞我诈的世界..
已经看着他们渐渐陷入无底的深渊..
我还能跟着他们的脚步吗?
随着他们到处应酬着不同背景的人,事,物..
脸上挂着他们擅长的笑容..
让任何人都摸不清他当时的笑是真心还是假意..
在客气的谈话中..
谁又知道这其中的背后藏着多少的秘密..
各自心中在漫骂着对方..
嘴上却又在赞赏着对方..
这世界上的人..
需要活得那么虚伪..
那么辛苦吗?
以前的人说, 女娲造人..
干嘛不连良心也一起创造呢?
让这些人都有良心..不让后代只懂得钱,面子..
良心?!呵呵..他们听都没听懂..
时间像狂风恶狠狠的把岁月吹走..
只剩下曾经的回忆..
现在只能不停的往前走..
走向黑暗的世界..人群..
在黑暗里绽放一点点光彩..
那是我唯一所希望的..
心口不一..心中讨厌却表面上跟那人要好..
那不是我! 天蝎座的人..
喜欢就是喜欢..不喜欢的话..强迫他也没用!!
擦鞋仔..捧咖啡仔..不是我的工作态度!!
只要认真..专业..就够了..
希望这样的人..能站在世界的平台上..
让大家能够看见不一样的我..
不一定要靠关系..靠美貌..靠身材..
实力一样重要!!未来的日子还要打拼叻~
所以..加油!! 哈哈..gambateh ♥

Mix Title @@

yesterday..really don't want to lie..
i hate lie..but i lie too..
when u said that i m lying when opening my eyes..
it really hurts..but how can i do..
haiz..i really headache.. it almost killed me..
that is truth.. no need to lie..right?
want to do some..things ma..
want give some surprise but also hate that words..that sentences..
however..reality..when doing some surprise will feel many many love..
will recall me that past matter..sweet matter..even bitter or sour..
these all matters already made me forgot how pain i feel..really^^
so no need sleeping to recover my headache..
conclusion i m not lying too..haha..
okay?? somebody??haha..

today..
some mechanic is coming my house looking for the spoiled aircond = =
when they are trying to repair that aircond..
they use water pipe and wash the things in that machine..
i m watching my lovely movie..kang xi lai le..
that episode has 炎亚纶^^
i want watching him from the first shot of him until the end..
but i cant T.T
because they~~mechanic...make my house flood..almost lah@@
haha..i m busy to find many many clothes for them..
and they are helping me clean the floor which is fulled of dirty and black water><
actually not help..they are doing themselve but i am addicted to that boy^^haha..
laughing non-stop but not same with before when i stay one person in my house..
haha..later..they are finishing their work and back already..
turning me to wash those clothes..omg!!!
they are wasting my time to enjoy my happy hour!!! want to cry lah!! T.T
nevermind..i can watch at pps too..haha..
and then..
tomorrow is someone's birthday^^
very very important day for him..because..tomorrow he will become 18 ys old..
older than me^^ haha.. wish him have a nice and enjoyable day..
also have a lovely day ♥ ^^ fit to my title ..haha..

Sick !!

Stomachache had coming again..
after suffering first time at last year..
even though it is slight for me when it occured at first time..
but at second time, it is more serious and make me in pain along 1 day more..
PAIN!! i cant describe how it pain..
it make u cant eat anything..do anything..even think anything..
it also make u like a old woman..
walking in stagger..
sleeping a few minutes and wake up..feels pain and sleep again!!
SuCK!!! why this disease will happen in my body?!
why i am too weak to adapt myself to this full of bateria and virus life?
how can i do? eat them..and digest them..haha.. i don't think so..
however..i am recovered now and feeling better^^
thank for my mum..she is sleeping with me about 2 days..
stand by me when i am sick..thank you^^ dad..u too..
no stomachache!! no headache!!
only have some problem with my teeth!!
my beautiful teeth!! why u so quickly to leave me alone..
i did not expect u will be sharpen..and become small ><
later..u are covered by one plastic teeth = =
omg!! it is more bigger than my other normal teeth..
to protect my real small teeth and my gum too..
so u can imagine how i look like now ><
want to cry now T.T
same like rabbit..but not rabbit..
because rabbit has two rabbit teeth ..but i have one only..
nothing same like.. = = haiz..
only have to wait and wait..
waits for 10 until 14 days...
real teeth will be produced^^
i can wear it and step out of my house..haha..
i am waiting for that moment^^
and u all..please don't want try to see my face now!!!

ReSuLt!!!!!

Result again..
same title but diferent feeling!!!
because..
i can handhold that sheet~~result!!!
i also can know my result after waiting for a long time in truth~
finally...
i scored 8A!!yeah^^
beat down brother already!! wahahaha^^
when i am holding the result paper..
i really want to pinch my cheek..
if pain..it must the truth!!!
not dreaming again..
cause i dream about i got 8A too..
and that happened twice! omg~
but reality..it may be a sign..
to let me know early..haha..
that day i feel sweet^^ and also suffer pain in love..
so widely diferent feeling ..right?!
so i don't know how can i describe for yesterday..
a big day for me..
happy or sad?!
dun knw = =
sweet matter that i can feel is coming from my grandma..
i told her about my result..
she said that : " jin jia bo? gao lo^^ ai dia dia lai la..a ma syok lu la^^!!! "
wow!! so sweet de.. i didn't hear this sentence before..
may be my dad's family is feeling like so far to me..
seldom visit them..
but yesterday i feel blissful and love from grandma !!!
happy with this..
haha..my grandpa!!! although he is not often to talk with us..
always 'immerse' himself in his movie ><
haha..but when he knew my result..
he gave me 2 sheets of RM 50..
he said :" lu ko bue A..ho lu 100 kou..haha.." laughing..haha..
grandma :"liao..gia chap A leh? ho gui lui?"
grandpa :"ma xi 100 kou..haha.." laughing again..haha..
luckily i got 8A..haha..murmur myself..haha..

suffer pain again..
why like this ?!
can't clear about this..
until now..
love is to be labeled UnStuDieD in my heart~

i want to sleep now...
let me ignore these all hell matters 1 day.. even 1 second!!!!!

Result~

23th March 2011
on that day..
i will laughing until my mouth almost split?!
or crying until two eyes become two lines?!
i don't know and don't want think about that..
why everyone must pass through this way?
can i leap over this phase?haha..
think too much..
anyway..accept the truth..
however..i had tried hard to concentrate on my lovely book..
i think so..haha..
okay!! be it so><
finished this post..so short..
because still have many thoughts of spm result..
whirling around in my mind = =
nothing idea to complete this post..
can't feel relax until the result coming out...
oh my god!! help me now~~i need you~ GOD!!
bless me please ^^ get a good result ^^ ~haha..

坚强^^

是该坚强的时候了吧!!
一路有着爱我..疼我的家人..朋友们..
让我无所顾忌..随意的说任何话..做任何事..
遇到不愉快的..就哭?!
随之所有人都会给予安慰..
是这样吗?
我能够继续这样任性吗?
回想着自己在别人生命中究竟扮演过怎么样的角色..
是时候勇敢了吧!
是时候让身边的人不再感到负累..
让事事都要保护我的人喘口气了..
希望能长大了..思想再成熟些..
摔过..伤过..痛过..
才能让我清醒些..
才能认清这世界的残酷..
才能把自己看清楚.......

原来..
我是这么的..不堪一击......